Hmmm...

God is amazing. Every time a fear or concern comes up associated with Jay and our relationship, either through prayer, or through talking to Jay about it, it is gone. After school, I had a talk with my dad about my future with Jay. Not that we are planning a wedding yet :P, but my dad is concerned that I am not thinking this through. He has nothing against Jay, in fact he really likes him, but he is just trying to look out for me.

My dad's fear is that Jay will end up in a nursing home before he is all that old and that I will be left on my own (possibly with children to support) and what will I do then? Well, I think that living in fear of the worst case scenario is not healthy. In all reality I could die tomorrow, or tonight even, or 5 years from now. Who knows?? Only God. And in my relationship with Jay, God is our guidance. I have never felt so sure that I am in God's will for me and that gives me comfort when faced with those questions from my dad.

I think by educating my dad about the life expectancy of people with spinal cord injuries (SCI), it may help to put his mind at rest. In all the literature I have read, I have come across information that there is only a slight decrease in life expectancy of those with SCI as compared to those without SCI. Of course people with SCI are more prone to infections and degenerative diseases (such as osteoarthritis and osteoporosis), however, Jay takes good care of himself. I think that a LOT of life expectancy has to do with attitude. Jay is a stubborn man, who is not willing to sit back and wilt and die because of this small obstacle. That is what I love so much about him.